Ideals

What are my ideals o.O?

Definition of ideals: An ideal is a principle or value that one actively pursues as a goal. Ideals are particularly important in ethics, as the order in which one places them tends to determine the degree to which one reveals them as real and sincere. It is the application, in ethics, of a universal. It is roughly similar to the relative intrinsic values.

Someone was asking me to update my blog frequently(You know who you are hehes *waves* :D!).

Ok so back to the main point, what are my ideals?

Today, i think i will just state about what has been bothering me these few days.

Relationships.

I wasn`t really happy but glad i had time alone to figured myself out.

I find out that i do have some problems as well.

What i do not understand is why do i always fall for the wrong person and just have the "thing" to struggle to fight for it no matter what.

I guess that is what they say "you can fall in love with someone with no reason".

*Sighs*.

Basically, i have to admit i get "touched" easily too.

Especially when the person is nice and all, that is when i sink :(.

When i get to know that person more, then i regret.

Another phenomenon is that my r/s are always short.

Don`t get me wrong i do want to get into a long lasting relationship.

A relationship that strives on sincerity, delication, happiness, honesty and most importantly trust.

So, i tell myself i have not met the "right" guy yet perhaps.

Another problem is perhaps i do not think that person is "wrong" for me as if he is "wrong" i will not have love him right?

But perhaps, some things are just without an explaination.

I thought that we would have lasted, i have the most faith in that relationship but something just tells me that our "ideals" are too different.

There are some things that you mentioned that i find myself to not be able to accept it.

As for whether i still love you or not, i guess that is not main point here, right?

If our ideals do not match, for me this r/s will have been another a waste of time.

Up till now, i have had 6 exes, and a friend told me it is time i start to think carefully about what i really want.

I am not young anymore as well.

I know i tend to make impulsive/hasty decisions that may not be good for me.

That is my flaw >_<.

Ok so i have thought about my ideals about relationship...

1: I want a r/s that consists of two commited people (You may think that it is basic but for some people it is actually not :x).

2: Someone compatible in terms of emotional level (What i want is love, affection and also fun but only within the relationship).

3: In order for me to "love" someone, that person will have to be the faithful and loving type towards me - that is what keeps me faithful, ok i am just wired this way.

It seems what i want is really simple, but through my previous relationships, i got to admit i could not get the satifaction that i need.

Perhaps i do not love them enough, or perhaps i even doubt if i even love my exes.

I seriously do not believe in double standards.

Untill i find a quality person, i am going to enjoy my single life and mingle tata :).

Till the day i find a love that is "till death do us apart".