Ideals

What are my ideals o.O?

Definition of ideals: An ideal is a principle or value that one actively pursues as a goal. Ideals are particularly important in ethics, as the order in which one places them tends to determine the degree to which one reveals them as real and sincere. It is the application, in ethics, of a universal. It is roughly similar to the relative intrinsic values.

Someone was asking me to update my blog frequently(You know who you are hehes *waves* :D!).

Ok so back to the main point, what are my ideals?

Today, i think i will just state about what has been bothering me these few days.

Relationships.

I wasn`t really happy but glad i had time alone to figured myself out.

I find out that i do have some problems as well.

What i do not understand is why do i always fall for the wrong person and just have the "thing" to struggle to fight for it no matter what.

I guess that is what they say "you can fall in love with someone with no reason".

*Sighs*.

Basically, i have to admit i get "touched" easily too.

Especially when the person is nice and all, that is when i sink :(.

When i get to know that person more, then i regret.

Another phenomenon is that my r/s are always short.

Don`t get me wrong i do want to get into a long lasting relationship.

A relationship that strives on sincerity, delication, happiness, honesty and most importantly trust.

So, i tell myself i have not met the "right" guy yet perhaps.

Another problem is perhaps i do not think that person is "wrong" for me as if he is "wrong" i will not have love him right?

But perhaps, some things are just without an explaination.

I thought that we would have lasted, i have the most faith in that relationship but something just tells me that our "ideals" are too different.

There are some things that you mentioned that i find myself to not be able to accept it.

As for whether i still love you or not, i guess that is not main point here, right?

If our ideals do not match, for me this r/s will have been another a waste of time.

Up till now, i have had 6 exes, and a friend told me it is time i start to think carefully about what i really want.

I am not young anymore as well.

I know i tend to make impulsive/hasty decisions that may not be good for me.

That is my flaw >_<.

Ok so i have thought about my ideals about relationship...

1: I want a r/s that consists of two commited people (You may think that it is basic but for some people it is actually not :x).

2: Someone compatible in terms of emotional level (What i want is love, affection and also fun but only within the relationship).

3: In order for me to "love" someone, that person will have to be the faithful and loving type towards me - that is what keeps me faithful, ok i am just wired this way.

It seems what i want is really simple, but through my previous relationships, i got to admit i could not get the satifaction that i need.

Perhaps i do not love them enough, or perhaps i even doubt if i even love my exes.

I seriously do not believe in double standards.

Untill i find a quality person, i am going to enjoy my single life and mingle tata :).

Till the day i find a love that is "till death do us apart".

Faith

I miss you.
Very much to be honest.
And i don`t know why :(.
It is torturing deep inside.
But how do i restore my faith?
Can i really believe in you?
You are a part of me i could not deny...
Maybe it is just me.
If you are truly in love with someone, you would not want to be anyone else other than them.
Love is so fragile nowadays, because all everyone can think of is just sex and fun.
It is ok to have your fair share of experience when you are single.
I always believe in equality.
Maybe it all boils down to desire.
My desire is to have a meaningful relationship, discovering, sharing and spending my life with my other half happily, it is that simple :).
Also, to become a good person with ambitions and to improve myself.
But i think it is best i stay single till i find someone that i really really love and is suitable for me.
Till then tada xoxo :).

LOL

I loled at this :x.



This father is exactly like mine.So scary.And the little sister is like my bro LOL.



Can`t believe i am watching this again.Reminds me of how i used to dislike ikuto just like amu.I like tadase hahas >_<.

I think i get how amu feels.

She loves ikuto but he is always either appearing out of nowhere or disappear suddenly.

Who wouldn`t get annoyed by that >_
On the other hand, Tadase is her first crush who is a nice/kind/popular guy in school which every girl admires.

Ikuto is more of the "bad boy" , the mysterious, mischievious, aloof, rebellious, a little sarcastic and "pervertic" kind of guy.

Eka says my inner character is like amu.

Someone who wants to be able to do everything :x even though always uncertain of what i really want.

Like to act cool when i am nervous or don`t know how to react to a situation >_<.

Stubborn.( I kind of dislike myself for trait too :(. )

Acts tough but is actually a very confused person inside >_<.

Deep down, i am actually quite conservative and shy( i know i don`t seem so).

One thing i am different from amu is i am not as timid haha or maybe i am :x.

And i am always worrying and thinking.

Kind of contrast of my outer personality hahas.

Oh ok time to do work bye bye :))).

Happiness can be very simple...

不確定就別親吻 感情很容易毀了一個人一個人若不夠狠 愛淡了不離不棄多殘忍
Don't kiss if you are unsure, Feelings can too easily destroy a person.If one is not ruthless enough, When love fades away, still staying together is even more cruel than leaving.

你還是要幸福 你千萬不要再招惹別人哭所有錯誤從我這裏落幕 別跟著我 銘心 刻骨
You must still live happily ever after. Don't make another girl cry again.All your mistakes stop here with me. Leave me, and let this love forever be remembered.

你還是要幸福 我才能確定我還得很清楚確定自己再也不會佔據 你的篇幅明天 開始 這一切都結束
You must still live happily ever after. Only then can I be sure I've returned all that I've owed you.Sure that I will no longer have a place in any part of your life.Starting from tomorrow onwards, All of this will end.

還我鑰匙的備份 我覺得再見可以很單純我甚至真心真意的祝福 永恆在你的身上先發生
Return me your copy of my house keys. I think the next time we meet, it can be as friends.I even sincerely hope that Eternal love finds you before it finds me.

I love this song from Hebe.This are the parts of the lyrics i loved most.:) <3.

To lie...

Someone commented: I think it's about a guy who want to break up with his gf. Don't know the reason(maybe, they suffer in this relationship,you know this push&pull type relationship), but it's serious,because the guy still love her,but wants to break up("we MUST BE separated"). So,he tells lies for the girl sake,like they will be together. I think the part "I shall be.." represents that he want to protect the girl from being hurt.But after the time goes on(tick tack),it's hard to lie anymore

Oh sounds so familiar ><~~~

Yours truely

A person with sincerity, honest and true.
Someone i will always look up to.
A person like this deserves my respect.
Yeah, this person exists.
But it`s rare.

Rainbow after rain

They say.
What you want may not be good for you.
That`s true.
But i don`t regret the decision that i have made.
Thanks for the wonderful memories :).
I don`t know, but i think i cannot give you what you want.
So i decided to go our seperate ways.
Thank you for being so nice to me all this while.
Even though, sometimes i sense something lacking.
But i really appreciate it.
I only wished you will be more honest with me sometimes, idk why...
I think i will be happier if you told me everything.
Sometimes i tell myself that i am thinking too much, but it has always been on my mind somehow.
Sorry that i did not give us a second chance, forgive me for being selfish.
Sometimes i need time to reflect.
I need the time to fix things that are still unstable in my life.
Sometimes i wish, some things remain permenant in my life.

Somethings doesn`t change

Spoiler alert: May be offensive in what i am going to see...

So if you cannot take it, please exit the blog and don`t say i didn`t warn ya :O.


Faithful people + Unfaithful people = Unhappiness
Unfaithful people + Unfaithful people = Happiness
Faithful people + Faithful people = Happiness

But, sadly, the world isn`t that good at arranging people and circumstances together : O.
However, i think it is the unfaithful people who are the selfish ones.
Some will lie and pretend to be someone which they are not.
I wonder why?
Aren`t they proud of being who they are? - Well seem so but from some people that i see act differently
If they are so proud of that , they should just show who they really are.
Of course you are proud, otherwise you won`t even start something in the first place.
Lastly, i have nothing against unfaithful people but those who don`t have the guts to admit who they are :D.

Some people change, some never, go figure.

It seems everybody tries to maintain a monogamous relationship, but some of the people who are just not able to - so they lie and cheat.

And yes, lying and cheating is what makes them scumbags in my opinion :O.

Btw, you may be the player but i am the coach :D.

Ps: I am not targeting anyone as well just random thoughts :O.

Win and lose

Miss my long hair xoxo TT.

Yeah, you win something called your own pride, self, dignity.
But you lost something more important, hope, self-confidence and love.
Yup, the loser is me, i surrender...

I am hungry so i go eat first, bye ;D!!!

A new year, new beginnings

HELLO!

Good morning :D!It`s 2012!Yay *clap clap*.

Well, many ups and downs on the year 2011 but let`s welcome a better year :).

Ahh, i started blogging because someone wanted to know about my progress and daily life.*sho sweet* :)

Sorry for not starting early because i decided since 2012 is near at that point of time, i decided to start a new blog this year :D.

Btw, have a good year peeps, be happy :)